Things I didn’t know

Got Your Nose
Kelly and AJ in December of 2015. Photo by Rich Hayes.

~Written by Kelly on the fourth anniversary of AJ coming to live with her.

I didn’t know that half your clothes would be three sizes too small.
I didn’t know that you had never had a bedtime routine.
I didn’t know that you’d never had a bedroom.
I didn’t know that you would throw blocks at the door when you were mad.
I didn’t know that I would intentionally cut holes in your pockets.
I didn’t know that you would run into the street to prove a point.
I didn’t know.

I didn’t know that you would hug twice as hard when you felt your world falling apart.
I didn’t know that you would sneak into my heart the same as you’d sneak into my bed.
I didn’t know that I had the power to banish monsters.
I didn’t know that I would finally learn how to throw a football.
I didn’t know that I would fight for you in court.
I didn’t know what unconditional meant.
I didn’t know that to the moon and back just wouldn’t be enough.
I didn’t know.

I didn’t know, but now I know.

I know that I will be there for you through your highs and your lows.
I know that you will be there for me too.
I know that there is not one definition for the word ‘family’.
I know that it won’t always be easy, it won’t always be fun.
I know that it will always be worth it.
I know that I love you today and that I’ll love you every tomorrow.

To the moon and back baby, and a whole lot more.